Up Early

Well, it might be noon, but that is early for me. I went to sleep at around 3 something am, and planned to wake up at around 1pm the next day. Nope. Now I am tired, but cannot sleep, as usual. My new restless state of mind. I need to meet some photographers on this live journal. I need some motivation to get me more determined to make money at photography. So photographers: where are you?I think I need to fix my hair this weekend. My hair is blond and very long. It is hard to take care of because it is so long. It is not long in an obnoxious way or anything; it goes to the middle of my back so it isn't THAT long. But the hair stylist messed it up last time, he highlighted it in a real shitty way, and now I have roots already, and my hair doesn't grow that fast. He barely touched the chemicals to my scalp. Great, for all the money I paid. Half a paycheck.I really want to go to a club this weekend, but I will be out of town, with family. I love my family, but I have been so cooped up lately due to having the flu, then a cold, then a fever, then a cold for 2 WHOLE WEEKS, then an upper respiratory infection, then another cold again. I just got better, and I want to go out. I was stuck in for weeks! But 2 weekends in between when I kinda felt better, I went out. One weekend I went to D.C. for the first time to visit an old friend. Actually it was my very first boyfriend. Bad idea. It was awkward because I haven't seen him in 4 years. I used to be more muscular and tomboy-like, now I am very thin and quite feminine. So he said he preferred my hair wavy, not straight, and he said I looked anorexic. He looked fat, but I was smart and had enough taste to think better of it and keep that observation to myself. Needless to say, we had NOTHING in common. In fact, I wondered the entire 48 hours that I was there why I ever dated him in the first place. I told myself I had all my days to answer this question, but I still, almost 4 weeks later, have no answer. Then the other weekend I went out, I went out with work friends. We went to different houses, different clubs, and many parties. I had a great weekend. I met a gorgeous boy too. But I am just not interested right now, my focus is gathering up enough money to move to NYC. NYC is my boyfriend for now. And my t.v.