i wish i liked you....

i really wish i was interested in someone, but unfortunately, i am definitely not.... i just think people are cute and that is the extent to my curiosity. i am too lazy to like someone and far too disgusted with men to spend all the time and energy that liking someone entails. i had a good time at work today. worked with alex, and i like her. she knows how to laugh, and that is what makes it all the better to actually keep working at that fucking dump. man, i am selling myself short. way too fucking short. i am 23 and a college graduate who had honors GPA and i could do anything if i tried, but i work as a hostess at a fucking dump where i am treated like a fucking bimbo. but i love my co-workers. many of them are great. i still need to quit and find a more genuine job. i feel like a fuck-up every time i work. and my boss won't let me serve there. she is not as cool as people like to think she is. she lied to me anyway, i was supposed to get a raise and she won't give me one anymore. i could care less, really. after i take these 2 classes and audit them, i will update my resume, move to new york, and find a better job where they recognize my talents. and i will never host again, and i will never pretend to care again when i don't care at all.i have no motivation to be the aggressor. it simply is not me. scary people want to corrupt me. they won't succeed. i am a baby girl. just a rotten one....