don't fuck with me

i think i am in a great mood, mmmhhhhmmmmm. i want some alcohol in my system, but i have to work in the morning, and i need some rest, was up till 6 in the morning last night, talking with a friend.tomorrow is a new friend's birthday night, and she only wants girls night out and only a select few females are invited. i am one of the lucky stars. i am so special. and i am so lovable. mmmhhhhmmmmm. i want to get her a gift, but i am just getting to know her so i don't know what she would want. i think i starved myself today by mistake....i wish i liked girls because boys are so boring.i wonder how tough i really am. if i could kick some bitch's ass. someone, and i won't say who, needs a few knocks on her face....what a fucker.my job is having a bowling party sunday night, and i think that is so cute. people have been asking me if i am going, and i say no. too shy to bowl, for i suck at such a sport as this. but i should go.... i like my co-workers.....one of my managers gave me the biggest bear hug today because i lost my grandma. i almost wanted to cry, it was so sweet. i love big bear hugs. i need a hug! really i just need some sleep. oh, my roommate and i are on good terms. i think that now we are okay and since we got her off the lease so a "big relief washes over me, in an awesome wave." i love bret easton ellis, best writer of all time next to Hemingway.